UGH... This should be easier!

Relationships are hard, but when two people are on opposite sides of the spectrum it makes it even harder. Harder than it should be. Is this normal? Is it okay to feel like you have less and less in common? I'm not sure...

But what I do know is that I would not take hot dogs to a cookout without the buns! That's just rude! You'll have all these hotdogs and no buns! I don't know about you but I like a bun with my hotdog! That's just one example. It may just be that I'm a woman and he's a man. And I realize that people with my personality always think we're right. It's because WE ARE! And if everyone just did it our way the world would be a better place.

That translates to realtionships too. We would be a lot happier if you were willing to see things my way. I just feel like the longer you stay with someone the more flaws and differences you see. I feel like if we're arguing about bringing hot dogs we'll argue about EVERYTHING in the future.

Bottomline... I'm scared. The differences scare me. And, this will sound horrible, but I feel trapped. I tried to "get some space" and he was very persistent. And I know it's because he loves me but what if these are signs saying "You're not meant to be! Give it up" Scared isn't the word...terrified is more like it. I don't want to feel like this for the rest of my life (marriage and beyond). It also doesn't help that I feel like I can't get out. Partly because I love him and I don't want to get out and part of me feels like we've stuck it out this long why not keep going? Ok so that's not a good reason, I get that.

I guess what the problem is I need more from him. Get a job, some benefits... give me a bit of security. Make me believe that it's going to be okay. Our differences don't matter.

Lesson of the day: Don't bring hotdogs without the buns to a cookout!

BREAKING NEWS...

I did NOT vote for Barack Obama! There I said it... now you know my dirty little secret! If given the opportunity to vote again I would NOT vote for Barak Obama. You're probably wondering why I didn't vote for Barack Obama. Is it because I don't like change? No. Is it because he's black? No. Is it because he doesn't know what the hell he's doing? YES! ABSOLUTELY 100% YES! Sorry folks... it's the reality of the situation. I think that he has a lot of good ideas but no real plan or experience on how to implement these plans. He sings a good song, but can he really dance a good dance? Not sure... we'll find out won't we.

I am so tired of people telling me to vote for him because he's black. So? Because I'm black I'm supposed to vote for everyone that is black? C'mon support your people, they say. WHATEVER! If I don't feel like you can do the job, why would I vote for you. What does that have to do with anything? Although many people (WV, PA, etc) didn't vote for him because he's black. Sadly, I must say that it really doesn't matter who wins the nomination. We may just end up with another Republican. I don't know about you but I'm moving to Canada!

Good Day...