Dear Mrs. Obama

The speech you gave last night at the DNC was great. I enjoyed all of the things you said about what Barack plans to do for the country. That was great and all but what I loved most of all about your speech was your how you expressed your love for your husband. I mean it literally brought tears to my eyes. I only wish that I will be able to talk about someone like that.

Sincerely,
AM

Just Politics...

Is anyone else sick and tired of hearing about the damn upcoming election. I want it to be over... likes yesterday. McCain's old ass really needs to sit down somewhere. Oh! But I was watching CNN this evening. You know how they are doing 24-hour coverage of the Demoncratic Covention and they have facts scrolling across the bottom. It said that Ronald Reagen was 73 when he was elected President. 73 ya'll???? I could not believe it. Maybe that's why McCain has a chance. And have you seen his commercial trying to get Hillary's supporters to join the other side. Classless! For real... that must mean he's scared. But there are some Hillary supporters who have said they will vote for McCain since she isn't the Democratic nominee. Ridiculous! Who does that? Just vote with the party! I plan on it! I'm gonna vote for Barack and Biden but I won't be happy about it, that's for sure. I just hope he wins. But let's ponder for a second...just a second... what if he doesn't win? Then what? What will all those supports do with all those t-shirts? Barack the vote! For real... if he doesn't win...man oh man it will be one helluva 4 years. Not sure I can take it. I think there might be a riot. Black people will be some kinda mad. I can hear them now "This is BULLS*&t!" Uh oh... let's hope for the best though! I would hate for this all to end up in the history books as the Riot of 2008.

And what's this... Ted Kennedy is at the Convention? He is battling cancer! CNN said that he told his family that he was going... of course the thought it a bad idea and he says "Well you don't have to go with me!" WHAT? That's dedication. They say that he has the power to unite the party. We'll see... the democratic party could use a little koombya right now.

An ephiphany...

So...I was thinking today. What went wrong? It was fun in the beginning. Ooo I know what happened!!! I grew up and he didn't. I graduated from college, got a job, etc. He didn't. All of that is minor compared to the real reason is *drum roll please* I did not make my standards and requirements clear in the beginning. I never said I want X, Y and Z and you must do A, B, C. I never said that. If a man doesn't know what you want and what you require how is he expected to know. I suppose, I'm part to blame for this.

I also realized that in the past I have settled. Every guy I've ever been in a relationship with liked me first... it was never a mutual attraction. I mean for the most part I eventually liked them, had feelings for them, etc. So I've had this pattern of settling. And I guess I did it just so I can say "At least I have a man!" But at what cost?

I need to learn patience. I need to wait for the man that is meant for me. Who knows when that will be. It could be a matter of weeks, months or years. I will wait... I have to wait. I deserve the best. I just need someone else to realize it too.

It's time to put myself first... If I don't, no one else will.

Obama/Biden Democratic Ticket

My mom says that Biden looks like a redneck racist in a suit... uh oh! The Barack fans are now torn. Hmmm he shoulda just picked Hillary... that's all I'm gonna say about that!

Goodnight!

Dammit!

Army Wives is a repeat???? WTF?!? What am I supposed to do now? HUH?

The end is near...

Is it normal to know when a relationship has ended? Is it sad that you can pinpoint the exact moment you noticed the decline? Well... I'm there. Unfortunately for him, he has no idea. I think he is oblivious to the fact that it's over. Our conversations couldn't be more dull. I think I have just come to realization that we are not compatible. Granted... I knew that from day one. I knew that we were complete and total opposites. We have NOTHING in common, besides our greek affiliation and some music. So sad... I've just gotten to the point where I'm tired of waiting for him. Tired of being put on the back burner. Tired of putting my own happiness aside because it makes him happy. I'm done. I can no longer ignore the fact that I'm unhappy, that we have nothing in common. It just doesn't make sense.

Wanna know how I knew it was over? The very day? The very conversation? Well it went a little something like this:
Him: You know I've been thinking that maybe I'm not the man for you.
Me: Well do you want to be the man for me
Him: It's not about what I want

So after that conversation I had my "aha moment". I had never thought about it like that before. I mean I knew we were different and all that but never had I thought that he could possibly not be the man for me. Hmmm what a concept! Needless to say from then on I just started noticing stuff. I was noticing things about him that I could not live with. For instance, I think it's rude to RSVP to go to a wedding, decide you're not going, don't call the couple to let them know you won't be able to make it and go to the Philly Greek Picnic instead? WTF? I would never do that. He just doesn't see the big deal about stuff like that. But I do. He thinks that his actions only impact him. Nooooo sorry! That's not the way it works homie. Not to mention, we've been dating for a little over 3 years now. I should KNOW by now if he's the man I will spend the rest of my life with. And unfortunately (for him) I don't feel that way. There are things that I'm looking for in a potential spouse that he does not possess, which sucks because... i love him... i do. But I've come to the point where love is not enough. I need compansionship, compatibility, stability, etc. I have to learn to be me first from here on out. I can't continue to live for other people. If I do, I miss out... and we can't have that.

So unfortunately, the end is near... my birthday is Thursday and this sucks. The end!