The end is near...

Is it normal to know when a relationship has ended? Is it sad that you can pinpoint the exact moment you noticed the decline? Well... I'm there. Unfortunately for him, he has no idea. I think he is oblivious to the fact that it's over. Our conversations couldn't be more dull. I think I have just come to realization that we are not compatible. Granted... I knew that from day one. I knew that we were complete and total opposites. We have NOTHING in common, besides our greek affiliation and some music. So sad... I've just gotten to the point where I'm tired of waiting for him. Tired of being put on the back burner. Tired of putting my own happiness aside because it makes him happy. I'm done. I can no longer ignore the fact that I'm unhappy, that we have nothing in common. It just doesn't make sense.

Wanna know how I knew it was over? The very day? The very conversation? Well it went a little something like this:
Him: You know I've been thinking that maybe I'm not the man for you.
Me: Well do you want to be the man for me
Him: It's not about what I want

So after that conversation I had my "aha moment". I had never thought about it like that before. I mean I knew we were different and all that but never had I thought that he could possibly not be the man for me. Hmmm what a concept! Needless to say from then on I just started noticing stuff. I was noticing things about him that I could not live with. For instance, I think it's rude to RSVP to go to a wedding, decide you're not going, don't call the couple to let them know you won't be able to make it and go to the Philly Greek Picnic instead? WTF? I would never do that. He just doesn't see the big deal about stuff like that. But I do. He thinks that his actions only impact him. Nooooo sorry! That's not the way it works homie. Not to mention, we've been dating for a little over 3 years now. I should KNOW by now if he's the man I will spend the rest of my life with. And unfortunately (for him) I don't feel that way. There are things that I'm looking for in a potential spouse that he does not possess, which sucks because... i love him... i do. But I've come to the point where love is not enough. I need compansionship, compatibility, stability, etc. I have to learn to be me first from here on out. I can't continue to live for other people. If I do, I miss out... and we can't have that.

So unfortunately, the end is near... my birthday is Thursday and this sucks. The end!