Thursday, May 27, 2010

Discovering new love...

I've been holding on to this blog for a few months. Actually more than a few, since January to be exact. Not because I'm shy or anything but mainly because I get annoyed with people's facebook posts declaring their love for their boyfriend/girlfriend. How they can't breathe without them? It's like they worship them. It's actually pretty nauseating. Especially, those younger people, who are barely adults but are convinced the boy they are dating as a sophomore will be around after graduation. Lovely thought but not realistic. Believe me. I've been there. I'm not hating or anything but damn. Anywhoo, I've decided that this blog is my personal (although very public) virtual diary. So, I'll write and express myself however I see fit. Don't like it? Skip this blog.

Here we go...

New love is scary and wonderful at the same time. The wonderfulness (is that a word?) of it all definitely trumps the scary part. While I enjoy discovering his likes, dislikes and what makes him tick I'm also nervous that I may say or do the wrong thing, only because I don't know better. Ya know? It's like...I don't know how to explain it. It's not the type of fear that makes you stop doing things but the kind that makes you cautious. I guess. I've enjoyed every minute of it though. It's been almost a year and my how time flies. I've never enjoyed someone's company as much as I do his. It's weird. Not bad weird just different. I absolutely adore this man. It's like one of those lovestories from movies but it's real. For real. I mean as corny as it may sound that's what it feels like. Without a shadow of doubt I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with this one man. It's crazy. I've dated other guys and thought that I could make it work if I had to but it's different this time.

I enjoy hearing the smile before the laugh. I love the way I fit perfectly in his arms. I love the way our hands find each other while we walk down the street. I love how thoughtful he is. I love how he goes above and beyond to ensure I'm happy. I love the way that he loves me. I love the way he adds me to his plans...life plans...long-term plans. I can't wait to see where our journey goes. *content sigh*

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