Discovering new love...

I've been holding on to this blog for a few months. Actually more than a few, since January to be exact. Not because I'm shy or anything but mainly because I get annoyed with people's facebook posts declaring their love for their boyfriend/girlfriend. How they can't breathe without them? It's like they worship them. It's actually pretty nauseating. Especially, those younger people, who are barely adults but are convinced the boy they are dating as a sophomore will be around after graduation. Lovely thought but not realistic. Believe me. I've been there. I'm not hating or anything but damn. Anywhoo, I've decided that this blog is my personal (although very public) virtual diary. So, I'll write and express myself however I see fit. Don't like it? Skip this blog.

Here we go...

New love is scary and wonderful at the same time. The wonderfulness (is that a word?) of it all definitely trumps the scary part. While I enjoy discovering his likes, dislikes and what makes him tick I'm also nervous that I may say or do the wrong thing, only because I don't know better. Ya know? It's like...I don't know how to explain it. It's not the type of fear that makes you stop doing things but the kind that makes you cautious. I guess. I've enjoyed every minute of it though. It's been almost a year and my how time flies. I've never enjoyed someone's company as much as I do his. It's weird. Not bad weird just different. I absolutely adore this man. It's like one of those lovestories from movies but it's real. For real. I mean as corny as it may sound that's what it feels like. Without a shadow of doubt I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with this one man. It's crazy. I've dated other guys and thought that I could make it work if I had to but it's different this time.

I enjoy hearing the smile before the laugh. I love the way I fit perfectly in his arms. I love the way our hands find each other while we walk down the street. I love how thoughtful he is. I love how he goes above and beyond to ensure I'm happy. I love the way that he loves me. I love the way he adds me to his plans...life plans...long-term plans. I can't wait to see where our journey goes. *content sigh*

Coming to grips

In approximately 92 days (not that I'm counting) I will be turning 25. Yikes! I've been dreading my 25th birthday probably since I turned 24 and I'm not even REALLY sure why. Could it be that I'm not where I thought I would be when I set up my plans before college? Back then, 25 seemed sooo far away but it came QUICK. I think I set unrealistic goals for myself. I thought by now I'd be married, graduating law school, in a home of my own, etc. However, upon graduation from college reality (i.e. student loans and the real world) set in, slapping me in the face. When I realized that I would graduating undergrad with $80K in loans, the mere thought of applying for more loans to attend law school made me ill. I just couldn't stomach the thought. Along the same lines, owing that much definitely keeps you from saving money to purchase a home/condo/place of your own. I say all this to say that I'm finally coming to grips with the fact that my 17 year old self had no idea what would lie ahead. There's nothing wrong with dreaming big but dreams/hopes have the right to change and alter themselves into reality. I'm not where I thought I'd be and it's okay, I didn't know what I was talking about anyway. LOL. Slowly, over the 90+ days I'll be 100% okay with where I am and who I am right now. I'll worry about who and where I'm supposed to be when I get there.

Moral of the story: You can't plan everything. And that's okay. Things happen when they're supposed to.

Out like the jeri curl

Alright so...I don't know if you've noticed or not but a lot of people, both men and women, are going natural, getting dreads, etc. I often wonder if it's just a phase or fad that will eventually fade away, like the jeri curl, high top fades, etc. I mean, it's cool right now because it seems like the thing to do but for how long? I'm wondering what the next thing will be. Will the perm become popular again? Will people get tired of their dreads? This isn't going to be a long entry but it's something that I've been thinking about. I mean, they say going natural is better for your hair blah blah blah but seriously, what happens when you don't want to be natural anymore? Is it true that you have to shave your head if you decide not to dread (no pun intended) it anymore?

Just curious.