Do you believe in generational curses? I'm beginning to believe that they are real. And if so, that would explain so much. Perhaps my failed relationships aren't my fault. Maybe, just maybe, I'm not meant to have a successful relationship. Is that possible? Here's where this is coming from...for the last month or so I've been taking a look at my life and everybody in it. During my observation, I realized that I have not witnessed ONE successful relationship within my family. Not my grandparents (on either side of the family), parents, aunts, uncles, cousins...nobody! Could it be that we're all doomed to unsuccessful relationships and heartache? I'm beginning to think so. I think that my grandparents set this pattern in motion and since none of their children have seen a healthy, successful, loving relationship the cycle continues. Is it possible that since we have never seen a lasting relationship that we don't know how to have one? I think so. I think you repeat what you see, regardless if you are conscious of it or not. It's not very encouraging to see my mother and her siblings who are all 40+ alone and unhappy. Could that be me 20 years from now? Or did they just make the wrong choices, choose the wrong people?
I mean, it would be easy for me to say, "That won't be me!" But what if that is beyond my control? What if it's not in the cards for me? What if my dreams of being a wife and mother never come true? In my heart of hearts, I would like to believe that it's not a curse and that my family members have just made horrible choices, which isn't far from the truth. I don't know. This has just been weighing on my mind lately. If this generational curse is real, I'm SCREWED!
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