In approximately 92 days (not that I'm counting) I will be turning 25. Yikes! I've been dreading my 25th birthday probably since I turned 24 and I'm not even REALLY sure why. Could it be that I'm not where I thought I would be when I set up my plans before college? Back then, 25 seemed sooo far away but it came QUICK. I think I set unrealistic goals for myself. I thought by now I'd be married, graduating law school, in a home of my own, etc. However, upon graduation from college reality (i.e. student loans and the real world) set in, slapping me in the face. When I realized that I would graduating undergrad with $80K in loans, the mere thought of applying for more loans to attend law school made me ill. I just couldn't stomach the thought. Along the same lines, owing that much definitely keeps you from saving money to purchase a home/condo/place of your own. I say all this to say that I'm finally coming to grips with the fact that my 17 year old self had no idea what would lie ahead. There's nothing wrong with dreaming big but dreams/hopes have the right to change and alter themselves into reality. I'm not where I thought I'd be and it's okay, I didn't know what I was talking about anyway. LOL. Slowly, over the 90+ days I'll be 100% okay with where I am and who I am right now. I'll worry about who and where I'm supposed to be when I get there.
Moral of the story: You can't plan everything. And that's okay. Things happen when they're supposed to.
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Great moral to keep in mind! I had a slight break-down right before 25. Like you I dreaded it. Honestly, its not that bad and I think everyone around that same age evaluates/reflects on their life. Its fine...no one is where they want to be, but as long as you keep reaching, you will end up where you are MEANT to be.
Besides look on the bright side, at least you're not 2 years from 30 like me! LOL :D
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